to keep track of random things Yohan says. I remember last year, back in the “earlier” months, he used to always bust out these crazy analogies (connecting science and faith, relationships and science, oranges and apples, etc). I wanted to write everything down back then but they came too frequently so I just didn’t bother. Now, they dont occur as often lol, but when they do, I think “man, that was pretty profound for a 27 year old guy”, and I want to jot it down. So now, I shall… try. Some will be written after the fact (like the patch-clamping analogy that will come in another entry, but was one of the first ones I remember him saying). Others will be written in the moment (whether he approves or not :P).. basically, most will be hastily written and not edited.
He never keeps track of things he says— and often forgets even the most common topics discussed (and thus repeats things often… -__-), but for certain comments, I feel like they are worth noting… just to read back on in the future. :)
So here’re some random notes that I jotted down last night, right before I went to bed. It’s not a complete reflection of what he said and may be paraphrased, but it’s good enough:
"The reason medicine changes me"…
It’s not when I learn about the neuronal pathways from head to toe— that’s not what changes me.
It’s the moments in medicine that point to the human condition and our need for Christ.. A lot of fields of discipline point to humanity— in understanding it. The arts, philosophy, all the humanities, science (added by Paula: physics — how does this world all come together; biology — how do we function as living beings).. And especially medicine.
When I was in the VA hospital, I saw a heroin addict who had relapsed after 2 weeks of freedom from addiction that had been affecting him for the past 30 years. I was presenting this patient to my preceptor.. and I remember saying the line, “Unfortunately this patient relapsed and that’s why he’s in the hospital.” And at that time my preceptor said something I will never forget and that caught me off guard. And he posed the question to me, “Why do you think it’s unfortunate that he relapsed?’” To me the answer was obvious; it was another failure.
But I’ll never forget the next words he said to me. “It’s not actually a failure but another opportunity for him to see the destructive power of heroin. And maybe this time around he’ll finally see that and turn around. Each relapse, then, is an opportunity of hope. It’s an opportunity for him to change his ways”.
So whenever I sin, whenever I fail.. I used to beat myself over all my deficiencies and insecurities, but it helps me to remember that it’s not a failure.. that i’m not a failure. Instead, every time, it’s actually an opportunity to see my weakness and to understand how sinful we are without God. it’s actually kind of necessary for us to see the human condition and to look to God in these moments. All of us have our own weaknesses that manifest in different ways and whenever we fail, it’s an opportunity to self-reflect and to seek God.
"The best way to teach someone"…
is not to tell them that they did something wrong. But the best way is for them to realize it themselves. ln the Bible when Peter thinks he’s so much holier than he really is, Christ’s way of correcting that is not to tell him, “You’re really not that holy. You need to be more humble”, but Christ’s way of teaching him is to let him see it by himself.
So Jesus says, “You’re going to deny me 3 times by the time the rooster crows tomorrow.” And even though Peter denies it at the time, the next day he ultimately realizes his sinfulness when he does as Jesus had said.
When you finally get a concept, something clicks. It’s like when I understood heart failure. Yes there’s edema at your feet, in both extremities bilaterally, there’s SOB (shortness of breath), hypoxia, chest pain, but then all these symptoms are just separate symptoms when you’re still learning heart failure. And it doesn’t make sense until one day you’re like “I get it”. And you can tell the person all the symptoms of their sin, but until they understand the pathophysiology of sin, they’ll never understand the issue. They’ll acknowledge it, but they won’t understand the big picture of how it all fits.
"When we talk big and become ambitious for our future, even if we say it’s for God, ultimately it is more for ourselves, because…"
Mose’s mom—let’s say she decided that she wanted to be a big person in life and wanted to save sick children in Africa— present day— (although she was in Africa), then what would happen to Moses? Her job in life was to be a good mother and to raise Moses. And in looking at the big picture, her objective in life from God was to raise Moses because Moses was going to be the one driving the slaves out of Egypt. It wasn’t her. But if she decided she wanted to have a fulfilling life and save sick children in Africa, then who knows— Moses may have not been the great prince he became or maybe he wouldnt’ have remembered his Hebrew roots. So what i’m trying to say is.. I guess not everyone is meant to take the slaves out of Egypt. But maybe to nurse the next liberator.. (likewise for Abraham Lincoln and his mother).
patch-clamping and unsteadiness of relationships… the megaohm.
^Yes, there is actually a connection.